Mellen-Thomas Benedict, had one of the most studied "near-death" experiences (EMI in French, NDE in English) since, because it is one of the most complete.
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« In 1982 I died of terminal cancer. He was inoperable and all possible chemotherapy would have left me like a vegetable. I was given six to eight months to live.
I had had access to terrifying information in the 1970s and had begun to become incredibly sensitive to nuclear, ecological and other issues. However, since I had no spiritual basis, I began to believe that nature had done something stupid and that we were probably a cancerous organism for the planet. I saw no solution to all these problems that we had created ourselves. I perceived all humans as cancer and that's what I got. That was going to kill me. Pay attention to how you view the world. It backfires on you, especially if it's a negative point of view. Mine really was and it was leading me straight to death. I tried all kinds of alternative healing methods, but none helped me. So I was determined to find out what really stood between me and God. Because until now I had not seen fit to have business with Him. At the time, I was very far from spirituality. I began my journey by studying spiritualities. I decided to read all the literature on these subjects, because I didn't want to be surprised when I got to the other side. So I read everything related to various religions and philosophies. It was very interesting and it gave me hope that there was something on the other side. At the end I had a nurse. I remember waking up one morning at home around 4:30 a.m. and I knew that was it. It was the day I was going to die. So I phoned some friends and said goodbye. I woke up my nurse. We had made an agreement that she would leave me alone at least six hours after I died, because I had read that all sorts of interesting things could happen after death. And I fell asleep. What I remember next is typical of the beginning of the NDE. Suddenly I was fully conscious and upright, but my body was lying down. There was this clarity around me. Being out of my body was even more alive than during ordinary life. It was so alive that I could see every room in the house, I could see the roof of the house, I could see around the house, I could see under the house. There was a shining Light. I turned to the Light. The Light was very similar to what many people have described in their NDEs. She was so gorgeous. She was tangible; you could feel it. It's very attractive; you want to go to her as you would have wanted to go into the arms of your ideal father or mother. As I began to move towards the Light, I intuitively knew that if I touched It, I would be dead. So, while going to Her, I was saying, "Please wait a minute, let's stop for a second now. I want to think; I would like to speak with You before leaving." To my great surprise, at that moment, everything stopped. Because you are in control of your afterlife, you are not on a freewheeling descent. My request was heard and I had many conversations with the Light. The Light kept appearing in different faces and forms, like Jesus, Buddha, Krishna, mandalas, archetypal images and signs. I was asking the Light, "What's going on here? Please can you enlighten me? I really want to know the reality of the situation." And the Light answered me. I can't exactly repeat his words, as it was some kind of telepathic communication. What I understood is that during the NDE you receive the feedback adjusted to your beliefs before the encounter with the Light. If you are Buddhist, Catholic or Fundamentalist you receive feedback in the form of your own imagery. You're given a chance to take a closer look, but most people don't take it. As the Light revealed itself to me, I realized that what I was really seeing was the matrix of our highest Self. We all have a Higher SelfExcerpt from the page: "Recover" :
Every being is connected to their inner Self, which is connected to God.
Our double
our inner being
The Texts agree on one essential point: deep within us, our eternal being slumbers; the one who came to incarnate on Earth, the time of a lifetime; who sometimes gives us advice. This marvelous part of ourselves binds us to other men and to God, in the same way that in the soil all the roots of all plants join in mother earth. « (...) This divine being, this sublime friend, is in each of us. for God resides within every man, but few know how to find him. But here is the way to salvation. Once you have seen the perfect being who is above the world and within yourself, you will abandon the enemy who takes the form of desire. The pleasures that the senses provide are the matrices of the pains to come. »
( Krishna)
« Train your mind to become aware of the divinity that inhabits it , and above all, do not diminish yourself, but rather, do not miss an opportunity to glorify this divinity present within you. For your body is the Temple of the living God. Take care of it, and you'll better appreciate it. And so, you will realize that he is the place where you join his presence. »
following..., that is, a part of our being that is a higher soul. It was revealed to me in its purest energetic form. It could really be described not as a tunnel but much more as a direct connection with the Source. The Source to which each of us is connected. Thus the Light showed me the matrix of the highest Self. Since I was not committed to any particular religion, I continued to feed on it after my NDE. As I asked the Light to continue to clarify, I understood what the Higher Self Matrix was: we have a network around the planet where all of the Higher Selves are connected. It's like a great brotherhood, a circle of subtle energy very close to us, the spiritual level one might say. Then after two minutes I asked to really know what the Universe was and I said: “I am ready, take me” . Then the Light transformed into the most beautiful thing I have ever seen: a mandala of human souls on our Earth. I was still in the negative view about what was happening on our Earth. So as I asked Him to continue to enlighten me and I saw in this magnificent mandala how wonderful we were in our essence, in our core. We are the most magnificent of creations. The human soul, the human matrix that we form together is absolutely fantastic, elegant, exotic, a multitude of magnificence. I can't even express how my opinion have changed at that moment about humanity. And I exclaimed, “Oh, God, I didn't know how beautiful we were”. At all levels, the highest or the lowest, in whatever form you are, you are the most magnificent creation of Light, and again, and again and I asked Him: “Does this mean that mankind will be saved?” Then, in a burst of fanfare with a shower of swirling stars the Great Light answered me: “Remember this and never forget it: you save yourselves, you redeem yourselves, you cure yourselves. You still can. You always can. You were created with the power to do this from before the world began”.
At this moment my understanding widens even more. I realized that WE HAVE ALREADY BEEN SAVED. We were meant to save ourselves like all the rest of God's creation. That's why we are given a second chance. I thanked the Light of God with all my heart. I could only express total appreciation « Oh! dear God, dear Universe, dear High Self, I LOVE My Life. » The Light seemed to suck me in even more. It was as if I completely dissolved into Her. Even today, I cannot find the words to describe this Love-Light. I entered another, deeper realm, and my consciousness expanded again and again. It was an enormous river of Light, vast and immersed in the Heart of Life. I asked what it was. The Light replied: « It's THE RIVER OF LIFE, drink to your thirst of this liquid manna. » That's what I did. I drank a big shot and again and again. Drink Life itself! It was ecstasy!
Then the Light said to me: « You have a wish » The light knew all about me, all of my past, my present, and my future. "Yes" I whispered. I asked him to see the rest of the Universe, beyond our solar system, beyond all human illusions. The Light then told me that I could go with the River. I did, and I was transported, DROWNING in the Light to the End of the Tunnel. I felt and heard very soft buzzing noises simultaneously. What a crazy race! Suddenly still on this River of Life, it seemed to me to be propelled like a rocket out of the planet. I saw the Earth floating away. The solar system in all its glory split the air and disappeared. Faster than the speed of light, the flow rushed me through the galaxy as I absorbed more knowledge than ever before. I understood that this galaxy and all those of the Universe, are overflowing with multiple forms of LIFE. I discovered worlds and worlds. The good news is that we are not alone in the Universe! As I rode this river of consciousness through the galaxy, the river fractured into terrifying waves of energy. The super beams of the galaxy with all their ancient wisdom were fleeing. At first I thought I was going somewhere, that I was traveling. But eventually I realized that as the river widened, my consciousness would widen to learn everything about the Universe! All of creation unfolded before me. It was an unimaginable marvel! I was truly a wonder child: a baby in wonderland! At that precise moment, I found myself in a deep peace, beyond silence. I could see and perceive ALWAYS, beyond Infinity. I was in VOID. I was in pre-creation, before the Big Bang. I had passed the Beginning of Time/the First Word/the First Vibration. I was in the Eye of Creation. It was as if I touched the Face of God. It was not a religious feeling. Simply I was ONE with the Absolute, Life and Consciousness. When I say I could see and perceive the ALWAYS, I mean I could experience all of creation generating itself. It was without beginning or end. It's a mind-expanding thought, isn't it? Scientists perceive the Big Bang as a single event that created the Universe. During my life after my NDE I understood that the Big Bang is only one among an infinite number of other Big Bangs creating Universes indefinitely and simultaneously. The only images that would come close here would be those created by supercomputers using fractal geometric equations. The ancients knew this. They said that God periodically created new Universes by breathing out and creating others by breathing in. These cycles of manifestations were called Yugas. Modern science called it Big Bang. I was in pure consciousness, in the absolute. I could see and perceive all Big Bangs or Yugas creating and recreating themselves. Instantly and simultaneously I entered into them. I saw that each of the smallest bits of creation has the power to create. It's very difficult to try to explain it. I am still speechless about this. It took me years to assimilate this experience of the Void. I can tell you now: Emptiness is less than Nothing, yet more than Everything. Emptiness is Absolute Zero; it is from chaos that all possibilities arise. It is Absolute Consciousness, which is much more than Unlimited Intelligence. The Void is the nothingness between all physical manifestations: the SPACE between atoms and their components. Modern science has begun to study this space between particles. They call it Point Zero. Their measuring instruments are outdated. They have no way of measuring infinity accurately. There is more zero space in your own body and the Universe than anything else! What the mystics call the Void is not a vacuum. It's all full of energy, a different kind of energy that created everything that we are. Everything since the Big Bang is vibration, since the first Word which is the first vibration. The biblical term I am really carries a question mark "I am – Who am I?" So creation is God discovering Himself in every way imaginable, in a continuous and infinite exploration through each one of us. I was beginning to understand, during my NDE, that all that is, is literally the Self, your Self, my Self. Everything is the Greater Self. This is why God even knows when a leaf falls. It is possible because wherever you are is the center of the Universe. Wherever each atom is, that is the center of the Universe. There is God, and God is in that Void. During my NDE, when I was experiencing the Void, the Yugas and all creation, I was completely out of time and space as we know it. In this state of expansion I discovered that creation is Pure Absolute Consciousness, or God, entering into the Life-experience that we know. The Void itself is devoid of experience. It is the pre-Life, before the first vibration. God is more than Life and Death. So there is more than Life and Death to experience in the Universe! When I realized that, I was done with the Void. I wanted to return to this creation, or yuga. It seemed completely natural to me. So suddenly I came back through the second light or the Big Bang, in a muffled sound of buzzing. I was riding the river of consciousness again through all of creation, and what a ride! The beams of galaxies penetrated me even more acutely. I crossed the center of our galaxy which is a black hole. Black holes are the processors or recyclers of the Universe. Do you know what's on the other side of a Black Hole? We, our galaxy, which has been reprocessed from another universe. In its energy configuration, it resembles a fantastic city of light. All energy on this side of the Big Bang is light. Every sub-atom, atom, star, planet, even consciousness itself is made of light and has a frequency and/or a particle. Light is a living substance. Everything is made of light, even stones. So everything is alive. Everything is made of the Light of God. Everything is very smart. As I rode the river again and again, I could see a tremendous Light coming. I knew it was the First Light; the Matrix of our solar system, our highest Light Self. Then the whole solar system appeared in the Light, accompanied by these muffled rumblings. I could see all the energy that this solar system was generating, and it's an amazing sight, I could hear the Music of the Spheres. Our solar system, like all celestial bodies, generates a unique matrix of light, sound and vibrational energies. Advanced civilizations from other star systems can, as we know, leave the imprint of an energetic or vibrational matrix to mark their passage through the universe. It's child's play. The Wonderful Children of Earth (human beings) are currently making countless sounds, like children playing in the playground of the universe. The Light explained to me that death does not exist. We are immortal. We have already been alive forever! We are a part of nature, of this living system that recycles itself endlessly. I was never told that I had to go back. But I knew now that I wanted it. It was just natural after what I had seen during this NDE experience. In human time I had no idea of the time spent with the Light. But I had had all my questions answered and my return was near. Yes, all my questions have been answered. Each human being has a different life and a lot of questions to explore. Some of our questions are Universal, but each of us explores what we call Life in a unique way. Because every form of life from the mountains down to the smallest leaf of every tree is unique. And this is very important to us in this Universe. Because Everything contributes to the Big Picture, to the fullness of Life. Each of us literally is God, God exploring himself in an infinite Dance of Life. Your uniqueness contributes to the growth of the Living. I came back to life. I had never been told and it never occurred to me that I was going to return to the same body. Doesn't matter. I had total confidence in the Light and in the process of the Living. As the river merged with the great Light, I only asked to never forget all the revelations and sensations I had experienced on the other side. There has been a "YES". I felt like a kiss on my soul. I was led on the way back through the Light into the vibrational realm. I received even more information. I would come home and I would be given lessons from my experience of NDE, on the mechanism of reincarnation. I received the answers to all my little questions: « How does it work? How can it work? » I knew I was going to be reincarnated. The Earth is a great producer of energy and individual consciousness emerges and develops within each of us. For the first time I thought of myself as a human being and I was happy to be. From what I had seen, I would have been happy to be an atom in this Universe. A single atom. Because, to be a human part of God…… is the most fantastic of blessings. It is a blessing beyond the wildest projection of what a blessing can be. For each of us to be the human part of this experience is both terrifying and beautiful. Whoever we are, wherever we are, nuts or not, each and all of us, are a blessing to the planet, right where we are. I expected to be reincarnated as a little baby anywhere. But I received a lesson in the evolution of individual consciousness and identity. What a surprise when I opened my eyes, it was such a surprise to find this body, to be back in my room. I don't know why although I understood it. Someone was looking at me sobbing. She was my nurse. An hour and a half after my death, she had given up. My body was cold and stiff. She had gone out into another room. When I woke up, I saw a light outside and tried to get up to go to her, but I fell out of bed. She heard a loud noise and ran into the bedroom to find me on the floor. Once recovered, I was very surprised and even terrified by what had happened to me during my NDE. At first I didn't remember everything. The memory came back to me later. I escaped from this world and kept asking « am I alive?" » . The real world was more like a dream. After three days I became normal again, my perception was clearer and yet very different from what I had always felt in my life. I no longer saw anything bad in anyone like before where I was really judgmental. I used to think everyone was crazy. In fact I thought everyone was crazy except me. Now I saw clearly. About three months later a friend told me I should get checked out, so I went, and they did a CT scan. I felt really good and yet I was afraid of hearing bad news. I remember this doctor in this clinic looking at the before and after scans and thinking, "Well, there's nothing now." I say "Really, it must be a miracle!" He says, "No, it happens, it's called spontaneous remission ." He was completely unimpressed. Still, it was a miracle and I was impressed even though no one else was. During my NDE I had descended into what is called Hell, and it was very surprising. I saw neither Satan nor the devil. My descent into hell was a descent into a world of human misery, of ignorance, a miserable eternity in the night of unknowing. But each of the millions of souls around me had a little star of light always available. But no one seemed to notice as they were consumed by their own sorrows, traumas and miseries. But after what seemed like an eternity, I began to call out to that Light like a child calls out to its parents for help. Then the Light opened up and formed a tunnel that came straight at me and surrounded me with all this fear and pain. This is Hell. So what we have to do is learn to join hands. The gates of Hell are truly open now. We will connect, help each other and walk out of Hell together. The Light came towards me and transformed into a huge golden angel. I asked "Are you the Angel of Death?" He expressed to me that he was my super soul, the highest matrix of my Self: the original part of ourselves. And the Light carried me away. Soon our science will quantify the mind. Won't that be wonderful? We will soon have devices that will be sensitive to subtle energies. Physicists collide atoms to see what they are made of. They've already found the quarks and all that. Well one day they're going to come face to face with this little thing that holds everything together and they'll have to call it… God. We are just beginning to understand that we too are creators as we go along. As I have forever understood, I have reached during my NDE, a realm in which there is a point beyond all knowledge which is the beginning of the creation of the next fractal level. We have the power to create while exploring and it is God Himself who flows through us. Since my return I have experienced the Light spontaneously and learned to reach this space almost with every meditation. Each of you can do it. You don't have to die or do an NDE to do this. We are equipped for; we are already connected. The body is the most magnificent Being of Light there is. The body is an incredible universe of Light. The Spirit does not prompt us to dissolve this body. It's not that at all. Stop trying to become God. It is God who becomes you. Here and now. I was asking God "What is the best religion on this planet? Which is fairer?" Almighty God said, « I do not care ».It was an incredible grace. When God says "I don't care" I immediately understood that we were the only ones concerned about it. For Almighty God, it doesn't matter if you are Protestant, Buddhist or whatever. All these are flower buds from the same garden. I would like all religions to be convinced of this and let everyone be. It's not the end of every religion, but we're talking about the same God. Live and let live. Everyone has a different view and that embellishes the Big Picture. Its very important. Deforestation will slow down and in 50 years there will be more trees on the planet than in a long time. If you are green, go for it, you are that part of the system that becomes conscious, go for it with all your might, but don't fall into depression. It's part of a larger plan. The Earth is in a process of self-regulation. It will never again be a place of wilderness as it once was. There will be large reserves where wilderness will thrive. In the future gardens and reserves will be essential. The increase in population comes very close to the optimal level of energy needed to bring about a shift in consciousness. This shift in consciousness will bring about change in politics, in money, in energy. After my death, my trip to NDE and the return, I really respect life and death. We may have opened the door to a great secret through our DNA experiments. Soon we will be able to live in this body as long as we want. After living for about 150 years, an intuition from the soul will tell us that it is time to change channels. To live forever in the same body is not as creative as the act of reincarnation whose energy would be transferred into this fantastic energy whirlpool in which we bathe. In fact, we are discovering the wisdom of life and death, and rejoicing in it. Either way, we're already alive forever. This body, this body that you are in, is alive forever. It comes from the Infinite River of Life and returns to the Big Bang and beyond. In a subtle and dense energy, this body gives Life to the next Life. This body has already been alive forever. »
